I quit my assistantship. I moved. I sold my car for 238 dollars. I bought a new car. Jenn and I almost broke up, my mental health has affected my relationships with everyone I know. I had a few suicide dramas. I have headaches that have prompted me to get an MRI where confusing things were found. I'm in therapy once a week. I'm trying to control my out of control life. Meg and Jenn visited and left. The Baron has a new home. There is no longer a wedding date, just intent. I'm insane.
  Here's my brain.

  Notice here there's a white spot on the right that's not on the left, this is a problem apparantly. Still, I have a nice brain.

  All in all, I guess things are good, at least I'm taking steps to better myself now. I've started writing my book, it's kind of depressing but somehow writing my thoughts down and reading them make me feel like someone else said them, and now that there are more people with thoughts like mine I feel better. I made a website about my new move and car, it's here. I sure need to work on not stressing, I've gotten to the point where nothing I own or care about is as important as coming to terms with my own anxieties and depression.

  Well, it's certainly been busy times. 3 months, jeez, I'm boring. Here's the objective breakdown of my life:

  Moving to cheaper and unfurnished apartment with bret and Ryan, possibly as late as Aug 1.
  Jenn is living in Tally for summer, no job to speak of.
  I dropped my assistantship for summer since i have 2 classes and 2 internships, and I have Jenn and I want to take some time to get my mental health in order. I'll still do Night Staff in the Fall.
  Lots of summer projects, check the projects section, there's the dresser and the new Turtle Tank 3.0.
  I'm goin to CA for 4 days, 2 in Nor Call and 2 in So Cal. I'm actually on the plane while I write this and I'll post it some other time.
  Wedding planning, Jenn and I have picked some China out which you can see here. We also have some crystal chosen here and some fine silver chosen here. We also hope to look into a venue this weekend and have the guest list finalized.
  Exercise. Jenn and I are eating VERY healthy and working out every day, including running. Operation "get hot for the wedding" in full effect, but I feel that I'm getting healthier, it's a very good thing.

  Clearly, this is an insane time, I'm kind of doing better, the car is dead again but el warrantio is keeping it working for free. Taking housing off took it from impossible to hard, which is so much better. All in all, I may just make it to the end of this ride.

  X3 Rocked my socks off. I was so impressed, I practically peed myself. Beast is my hero. Kinsey is an awesome movie since I am him, Oceans 12 has the best cinematography and soundtrack I've ever seen, Tom Hanks is the best actor of our time, Tool and Avenged Sevenfold rock, South Park needs to stop just insulting other shows and be funny again, Monster House is off the air BOO, UFC kicks ass and I was the only person in the whole Hooters who knew Hughes was gonna win, MAN LAW, caaaaaalllll the poliiiiiiiiiiice, With a coat hanger next to the toilet, Ryan's Mom + Keith Forever, OH BOIEE!!!!!, eorrerrroerroerore, "Cause I'm the Juggernaut Bitch, I'll kill you rape you and eat your costume, I'll beat you Charles then I'll beat you with Charles", D Pitty's Hair Color, the vortex of weird, Ignant.

Focker, out.

  The civic died in Orlando and I pawned it off ona mechanic for the cost it took me to tow it from the side of the road the 50 miles. We caught a rental car back here to Tallahassee and I proceeded my search for a new car. After investigating several new SUV's and Vans and seeing just how tight I can squeeze my money belt, I found a 1995 Nissan Altima. It's in awesome condition, a guy in town left for grad school at UC Berkeley and couldn't take it anymore, he lived with his dad who is a professor here for the entire duration he had the car and the 2 of them shared it, so they made sure it worked well and had all it's maintenance. It is 11 years old, but it's in nicer shape than the civic was when I lost it. It had some paint scrapes, minor body wear, a few things on the inside needed some help, but with some minor mechanic power of my own I've made it very good. For a total of $2500 after tax, title, registration and a bunch of extras I have a nice new car.
  I also left the shit hole that was the exchange, to finally move into an apartment that's not a maintenance nightmare. But more on that later.

Here's the front of the new car. The front bumper has a bunch of crap caked onto it so I haven't fixed the paint yet. I'm gonna get it washed, then paint it, wash it again myself, then get the whole thing waxed.

When I got the car, it didn't have hubcaps, so a quick $40 fix and they're better. The stickers on the windshield won't come off, I haven't tried chemicals yet but that's not a big crisis. Notice where I fixed the paint on the side? Of course not 🙂

Other side of the car.

Back of the car, notice retractable antenna, the little hidden key slot behind the Nissan logo, and my new plate. There was some back bumper damage but it's almost invisible after the paint fix.

The trunk open.

The back seat doesn't fold down, but it has this neat little trap door for 2x4's, and for people in the back seat to sneak snacks in the trunk.

The inside of the drivers seat, the wire you see hanging is my ipod connection. Notice my floormats, my steering wheel cover, and my skull shift knob.

THe back seat, it's weird having 4 doors, when I go grocery shopping I have options for where to store things, and I can cart people around.

The passenger seat from the driver seat. Like the luxury wood finish?

Here's the center console, you can see there's cup holders in the glove box, and there's 2 more in the console, plus an ash tray and my stereo I installed. Also see the skull!

Ok, so I know it's silly, but his eyes light up red when you hit the button on the left, which is every time you shift. It helps make the car feel like mine, you know?

Dashboard, the mileage is wrong, and you can see I zero out the counter showing it doesn't work. One of the only things that doesn't work for real on the car.

To prove it's a manual, here's 3 pedals. I had to learn to drive it.

This pasta noodle is the engine.
  So, I have a new place with guys I know, and the rent is a whole bunch cheaper. I had to acquire furniture since this is unfurnished, but all in all it's a much better situation. Let's take a look:

Leaving the parking lot, you can see the building I live in. I'm around back, and you can see the path. Notice the fenced area on the right? That's the Pit of Despair, you'll see more of it later.

The path, those are the stairs up to my apt at the end. The Pit is to the left now.

So, this is our very own Pit of Despair. It's a 30 by 30 foot pit at about 5 feet deep. Maybe a drainage runoff, maybe they planned a swimming pool or something, but now all that's there is despair. We want to put a trampoline or a pirate ship there or something, I'll keep you posted.

Here's the bike I built, made from the parts of 9 broken bikes.

Looking up to the front door.

Here's the view once you get inside, with Bret sitting in front of the TV. His giant TV.

Just to the right of the entrance, there's also a fireplace and the door to my room back to the right. Ryan's futon is there in front, so is his extra monitor. The inflatable chair Meg gave me is there, but slowly deflating. Also, you can see the wireless router and cable modem up on the wall, away from anything that will block the signal.

More of the living room and entertainment center. You can also see the Baron's tank, he can see outside and watch TV, plus behind the recliner is the door to the patio. The guys kind of handed it over to me for workspace.

Looking out onto the patio, I made that workbench for $20, and it's solid as a rock.

Spare wood and bike parts.

Better view of the work bench, I like it a lot, plus a bunch of our collective tools, and my welding torch.

Back inside, the entertainment center. HD 37 inch plasma, 7.1 surround sound stereo, DVD player, HD TV with DVR and On Demand, plus an Xbox, PS2, PS1, Atari 2600, Nintendo, Super Nintendo, Nintendo 64, Nintendo Gamecube with Advance and Game Boy Color Player, Original Game Boy, Game Boy Pocket, Virtual Boy, Dreamcast, and finally we will soon get a Wii.

You can see the kitchen and the eating area, and the way back to the boy's bedroom. There's also the white stackers that make up our makeshift pantry.

View of the kitchen and the laundry room, not that glorious.

Ryan's turtle in the corner, it's a girl and about half the size of the Baron, but she's happy.

Here's the back hallway that leads to the boy's bedroom and to their bathroom, and our storage closet.

The Hallway.

Here's our storage closet, with all its junk. Maybe it could have been a pantry in a former life, but not now.

Here's the view of behind the futon, of the entrance door and to my room. And the fireplace, and our back 2 speakers.

Here's the way into my room.

The back of the entrance door, and the way into my bathroom.

The bathroom, my organizational thing, and some of my in room entertainment center.

Entertainment.

My closet, the start of the dresser.

My walk in closet, where my guitars are and stuff.

My dresser which we re did, and the window where I keep my books on the sill. Also, the start of my HUGE BED!

My lamp and bed.

Bed, underbed storage, nightstand, and chair.

DESK and ALL COMPUTERS!

Supercomputer and entrance door.

My bathroom, I just fixed the second towel rack. Also, my sink.

The behind the toilet thing, and the toilet.

The shower. Wow.

Finally, an analysis of my bed. I first got a bed for $70 from some international students, but it was nothing more than a 4 inch foam pad, I got ripped off. So when another queen sized bed came available, I got that for $30. I threw away the original box spring, used the original frame, put the new box on, put the new mattress on, then the foam pad, then the egg crate, then the pillow top, then the fitted sheet, with a stack of straps to keep it all together. All in all, it's the most comfortable bed ever made.